it’s strange to see you today. i’d only known you for two hours. you didn’t’ make an impression on me or sweep me off my feet or anything. but for some reason you stuck with me. i remember how bad that date was. how tiny i felt after being with you. not because i thought you were better than me but because i felt like i wasn’t anything to you. i felt i tried so hard to get to know you but you just didn’t care. what was the point of saying yes to going out with me if you had nothing interesting to say to me? or to not be interested in what i have to say? did you just think we would magically form a bond? a relationship? its nice when that happens but there is always a common ground. you gave me nothing of yourself and i don’t know why i was so willing to give so much of myself to you. i wanted to say hello to you but you seemed as if you didn’t care. yea we went out once and it was weird now lets pretend we don’t know each other. lets pretend we never found one another attractive. like we never wanted to kiss or hold hands. i did. i hoped for it. but you just didn’t want to know me. and you still don’t.

@10 months ago